In some ways it feels like just yesterday I was closing the door on a five year relationship. In many other ways, I can't believe its only been a year ( Read more... )

My stomach is killing me. Like, to the point where I have felt like vomiting a lot for the last few days, especially tonight. I've had acid reflux and heart burn like a son of a bitch ( Read more... )

Today was good. Had more excited thoughts than sad thoughts. The morning was pretty good, too. I don't have much to say because I'm crying my eyes out after reading an email he sent me... probably the sweetest and most true words I've ever heard come from him... something I will print out and keep with me for as long as I can ( Read more... )

"How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back? There are some things that time can not mend. Some hurts that go too deep... that have taken hold." -- J.R.R. Tolkien (Frodo, Lord of the Rings: Return of the King ( Read more... )

As I try to make my way to the ordinary world, I will learn to survive ( Read more... )

I'm alive. Thats about all I can say for the moment. All of this "I can do this, I can be my own person" stuff is such bullshit. I hate that I can't see myself with out him, yet, I also hate that we're still somewhat bitchy with eachother... I wish everything could just work out for the better. I'm doing all of the things now that I should have ( Read more... )

I'm alone. Not so much alone as in "by myself" or not in a relationship... but I'm alone with out friends for the first time since it happened. For the last few nights I've been hanging out with friends somewhere other than "home", and when I was "home", I had friends with me. I just got back from taking Sue back to Seaford. Larry is asleep, which ( Read more... )

I've decided to write down my emotions for every day for a while. Will give me something to reflect upon and a way to vent. I don't tend to remember things very well when I'm stressed ( Read more... )